Plastic people

(Photo by Sue Anna Joe)

... Wont it be great if everyone saw a monster and fell in love with it???

I feel like rambling!

I always have moments when I am filled with doubt about every single decision I have made in life. This is one of such moments... I am at a very pivotal point in my life and I have only one plan of action. I have been really worried about what I will do if my plan fails. I feel trapped by the choices I have made this far in my life even though things have worked out well for me thus far. I am really questioning my career choice, my geographical location, my lifestyle, in fact, everything around me has become a question mark. I hope that I can regain the confidence in what I do and how I do it. I don't even know why I feel unsettled right now but I hope this feeling will go away soon because it is not a great one at all!

That said, I will move on to more positive ramblings! I have finished my visa application and I think I may have found the perfect apartment in Geneva :)

Also, this summer has been an experience. I usually over do my workout, for the past 3-4 years, I did anything from yoga, pilates, kick boxing, jiu jitsu, weight lifting, cycling and step 6 times a week for an hour or two. It was so much that my arms went from being just toned to muscular (and I mean reeeeaaly muscular!). You should have seen my parents faces when they saw their little girl becoming a little boy...hahaha... That to me was the sign that I was taking it over board. After looking at what I had done to my arms, I decided to reduce the workout intensity, since May, I have been working out for only 2-3 times a week. Hopefully my arms will stop looking like tubers of yam!!! hehe

Life!!!

I just heard that my father had a stroke back home in Nigeria... he is only 50 years old!!! I feel so scared!!! It was a mild stroke but still it made me think about the possibility that I might not hear his voice or see him again. I have already lost so many family members and I am not ready for another loss. I and my siblings are going to fight this as much as we can, no more red meat or alcohol for you Daddy!!! We are going to ensure that we do all we can to keep him healthy! I feel so bad because I am always away from home instead of being there for family... I prayed hard to God to preserve my family, we have been through a lot of bad times but we have weathered it all together, it is time to enjoy, sickness and death cannot come and mess things up!!! I am pray things will be fine with my baba's health and with everything!!!